Long time no blog

Okay so, I’ve been a little upset with myself lately for not sticking to this like I said I was going to. No excuses but a lot has happened lately, but no matter what I just keep moving forward. 

 

So yeah, I moved to a new place. It’s closer to the city, closer to my studies, and best of all, away from negative influences. I’ve been ignoring the same problem that’s been around me for too long. It feels so good to be away from it now. I have said before that I don’t let people get to me, but that actually required more effort than I thought. The amount of stress that has been relieved is peaceful…

 

Anyways, I need to get my write on. I still want to make my novel. I know this is a short blog but I had to conjure something up before I lose that bit of motivation. Now that I’m settled, I hope I can get my main goal done. Thanks to anyone who actually took the time to read this. Keep being awesome.

Lost but never forgotten

So, I didn’t expect to get much of anyone viewing, or even liking my posts. Especially didn’t expect to get followers so soon. I find it much of a blessing though as it has motivated me to continue this trek, so thank you. However, I haven’t had any idea of what to say, since this is probably the busiest month of the year, I have been wrapped up in a lot of things lately, like did you know that more people die in the winter…?

 

A few days ago, I lost my Grandfather. No please, no pity, I am not crying out for help here, I just want to share something. This man was an incredible person, beloved by all, and served in every branch of the military after his Father died in WW2. He was kind, loving and quite shy, I like to think I picked up some of those traits, since I spent a lot of my early childhood at my Grandparent’s house. He and my Grandma went together so well, he was the perfect gentleman and my Grandma brought him out of his shell, organizing parties, trips, and events. They met in the Airforce and were together for a bit over 40 years, before she passed away. My poor Grandpa gave up the will to live at that point and developed a case of Alzheimer’s. He never was the same after that.

 

Reflecting back on the good times, my Grandpa was an amazing role model and he taught me many things from riding a bicycle to learning how to use a computer (isn’t that neat? Not what you would expect from a grandparent!). I thank him for bringing my Mother into this world, since she too, is a miracle. Apparently my Grandmother couldn’t have children but they managed to pull it off and were lucky enough to have my Mother!

 

I find life throws a lot of things at you which force you to react. I didn’t react much until the funeral, since I tend to subconsciously turn off my emotions at times. I did cry though, once they started playing “Wind Beneath my Wings”, my Grandpa picked that song out for my Grandma’s funeral, since it was how she made him feel. My Mother decided that it should be played at his as well, since my Grandma felt the same way. That sure brought out the tears in me but I still got up to speak for my Grandpa afterwards. In the end, I would still count this as a blessing, for my Grandpa is now with my Grandma once again. He no longer suffers from Alzheimer’s either, because he was not the same man I knew anymore. I still loved him unconditionally and I am going to miss him a lot, but I already started missing him 7 years ago. I’m glad he rested peacefully, with my Mom by his side, he wasn’t alone for a moment.

 

Thank you, Grandpa. You will always be remembered.

Step 2

So I wanted to start something I’ve had inside of me for a really long time. That is, writing. I have many ideas for a series of different novels but haven’t done much else but write notes and maybe a few paragraphs. Mostly because, I am an inexperienced writer. So I decided to pick up a novel and read through it just to see how they are written and I found a really great book!

I wanted to get into something no one else I know has read. I’ve heard about a lot of great fantasy stories but I wanted to pick a book out of my own judgments. So I looked, in two different days actually, trying to find what I liked. The first day I couldn’t make up my mind but the second day I remembered what it was that stood out, and I picked up “Prince of Thorns” by Mark Lawrence. A bit on the dark side, but I like that. It is a medieval fantasy book, one of which his inspirations came from was “Game of Thrones”.

Reading again feels good. I haven’t read much outside of blog and forum posts, Wikipedia, Zite, and sometimes even the newspaper. However, if I am to write a book, I feel I should at least be reading them. Maybe it was school that turned me off of books and writing, I never was a big fan of English class. Anyways, I look forward to reading more books, I like fantasy, sci-fi, mystery, and those self help books. I still need to finish “The Magic of Thinking Big”. A fitting book for a fitting time, I will do that next.

Welcome

Yesterday I decided to delve into the world of blogging. I actually wasn’t expecting to do this until I had a well grounded idea of who I am and what I want to blog about but I tapped into my memory bank of inspiration and remembered the old saying “The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step”. So I made my blog and put that quote in there, making my first step. Already, the road ahead does not seem as intimidating but first I have a confession to make.

 

I suffer from a disorder… Symptoms include: Laziness, procrastination, short attention span, softness, giving up, and more. I’m not sure what to call this exactly, but talking to elders and looking back on what life used to be like made me realize that we have so much untapped potential. Sure we have become more advanced with computers and we have a lot of cool new technology but we aren’t doing much with it. We should be controlling these pieces of technology but instead they are controlling us. I fell victim to this and want to confess to the world, to my computer, and letting them know I wont be controlled anymore.

 

So, with that out of the way, I will continue my journey. I still don’t know where I am going but I can’t stay here. I’ve sat here for too long thinking, wondering, hoping, and wishing, when I should have been doing. I used to say I was smart, but I have to accept I’m dumb because intelligence is not worth anything unless you do something with it. 

 

Today I free myself from insanity.

 

“Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results” – Albert Einstein